Ok, time for a late night up0date... well, late for me that is.

Went to Kaede's house with the Panda and watched Shaun of the Dead. It was great. Funny with just a hint of Sadness. I give it 4 fingers up!

Anyway, so an update on the X thing.

Yeah, he's hott... I'll give him that. But he unnerves me. It's really creepy. I know that I'm afraid of guys, but not that much. Seriously. And after this semester, what with being dragged around with Panda and her love crusades of hottness, my fear has lessened up a lot. The thing is, X is still disturbing on a whole other level.

I think it was a mixture of the alcohol and the really lateness that made me nice to him. I kinda wish I went with Linkie-chan when she left. I might not have given him any ideas. Oops. But I know that he's a bad match for me. Seriously, from what I've seen, we have nothing in common.

Not only that, but there's only 1 month left in the semester. Seriously, I can't get to know him well enough in that time to even consider a date. At this moment in time, I'd rather date KPS than X. I think that's saying something.

Panda knows it too. I don't know if she read my mind or what. But she knew that he wasn't good for me. I really wish I didn't let him touch my hair and rub my back. .>_O It seemed like a good idea at the time. That was the alcohol. And the uneasiness. And the fact that I was REALLY tired. I mean, after it was just me and the Panda, and she was cuddling my leg -not the Swedish one- I almost fell asleep sitting up. I didn't have my "no touchy" beam going.

Now all I can think about is him cornering me and being all "Yo." *shudders* I don't like it. It's actually growing into a true paranoid fear.

Oh yeah, and I have to work on my meditation too. Just concentrate on that 6th Chakra. .>_< I'll probably bust a gut. Heh. If I can meditate, I can clear my head of all these jumbled thoughts. Man I need to go to bed now and hopefully get some sleep.

~Topaz Tribal~